I was very sorry to hear that you lost your husband, it must have been a terrible shock, to loose your soul mate. I have lost three family members recently, my dear sister-in-law and father-in-law both to cancer and my poor Dad, it is hard to come to terms with so many family deaths, but Steve & I just think of the good times we had and we both have a strong faith about the after-life. I personally feel that my Dad constantly watches over me and I feel his presence at the most unusual times. All my love and sisterly hugs and kisses AL.