I started working on VR Rome 3 1/2 years ago and since I've started I have had a 5 artery bypass. I didn't get any better and then I had a pacemaker/defibulator put in. In the meantime I caught a staph infection and after months of IV drips and medicine so strong it killed every bacteria in my stomach and bowels and finally settled in my right foot and the Dr's had to amputate my middle toe. Then another 6 weeks went by and they had to amputate the toe next to that one. I have diabeties and it is clogging my arteries and the Dr's had to put two stints in my leg and two more stints in my caratorid artery and then two more stints in my heart and then two angioplasties in my heart. I have periferal neurophy and my feet are as dead as two blocks of wood and my left foot is purple as an egg plant. I take 22 different medicines which is very expensive. I take sleeping pills, hydrocodone, valium, sleep ease and still can't get to sleep much before 2am. I am taking so many blood thinners that if I brush up against anything I will bleed like I have been in a knife fight. I honestly don't mind getting old and infirm, but I bitterly resent the lack of dignity and lack of sleep that goes with it. I have never claimed to be smart, but have managed to earn and spend a ton of money. (Witness VR Rome for spending money) I would dearly love to complete VR Rome before I die, but I doubt that will come to pass. I guess I could take everything in stride, illness and all, if I could just get a decent nights sleep. I've been so depressed that I haven't built in VR Rome in months and haven't even built in my beloved world America and have turned all running aspects of that over to someone else. I know no one in here is interested in my ranting, but you know what??? I haven't spoken of this to anyone...not even my wife and I kinda thought that since so few people are using AW now that this would be the perfect place to expose my inner fears and breaking heart. Well anyway, you guysngals go on about your business and I will walk the streets of VR Rome.